“Maybe I wasn’t asking you to love me, maybe I was asking you to understand, because for so long I’ve been hurt and for so long you’ve ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, I don’t care. I’ve been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you’ve been waiting too, and you haven’t and maybe you never will or maybe you’re afraid to. But it all hurts the same, and in the end, I’m the one that’s left broken and when I lay down to sleep, I’m still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will.”
— unknown
This could be the real world beneath my solid head. Sometimes I can be multi-colored, but I could be the brightest.
;)
I wanna wait out the sandstorm with you. We’ll cuddle on the couch, complain about the heat, a bottle of a very cold beverage at hand and you. We’ll open the a/c and have it on maximum making the room so cold we’ll forget the heat outside. But I won’t be cold. My arms will be around you. With your nose in my armpit, I’ll feel the safest and fragrant I’ve ever been.
I wanna go on a picnic on the beach. Nothing to put on our heads just the skies, the stars and the mild sea breeze. We won’t have a tent and stay awake until we get to see the sunrise. I’ll count the stars as you watch me counting like a nerd. I’ll teach you how to spot the constellations and maybe, we’ll pick our own star. Maybe name it something crazy. Something funny. Whichever name we’ll pick, I’m sure it’ll be awesome. We don’t have to wish upon a star. Because really, what more can we ask for? Just being together is more than enough.
I wanna walk with you, too. To everywhere and nowhere in particular. I’m thinking old cobble stoned steets and ancient buildings. Eating lots of food and having a friendly competition on which spice or ingredient was used in that particular meal. We’ll duck into secondhand book stores, inside record bars, try new cafes or watch a movie in a different language. But the best part of these little adventures won’t be how far we went or how many places we’d visited —- but the steps we took closer to getting to know each other. It’ll never be tiring to discover the woman who won my heart.
But really, I just wanna be with you. I don’t need promises of forever and eternity. I wanna hear you say you love me again and again, and trust that you mean it. To confess to you how much I need you because I love you so. To be vulnerable and know that being weak is okay because you accept me even though I’m so fucked up. To look at you and see you looking at me and know that you’re thinking: ”Wow he is just amazing, so perfect and all. ——” okay, not really that. I know you’ll be thinking: “Wow. We really get to spend our lives together.” Just so you know, I’ll be thinking of that too. (and add some:“Wow, I can’t believe this awesome girl’s thinking of spending her time with me.” )
Then we’ll just smile at each other. Because you know, after all the dead ends, the wrong turns and almost finish lines that broke our hearts… I still believe all these will come true. I still believe you’ll wait for me.
This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.
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| — | Marilyn Monroe (via fatherearth) |
